Its All Become So Stupid, 'Cause Everythings' So Stupid...

Amy wont be in this blog...she's...sleeping. - .- (can you guess the riddle in those colorful words? Green, Orange, Blue)

I had a weird dream o.O, it was kinda sad too ='(...and short. This is it...:

I was at my dads house for the weekend (him and my mother split up when I was like 2) I guess in my dream it was my birthday or something. He was driving, I was in the passenger seat, just looking out the window. Then we parked some blocks away, maybe two or three. ( I dunno guess there wasn't any parking.) We were walking, not really talking just small talk. We got to a hair cut place. My dad said, "I'd like to get a hair cut and my daughter would like her hair dyed." (okay maybe my dad knows me a little =]) I smiled. then some guy was checking me out. My dad saw and said, "Sir, would you like to cut my daughter's hair?" he said, "No, I'm just about to go on break." "Dad you can get your hair cut first, I'll just wait over there," I said pointing to the chairs, "Oh, can I have the car keys, so I could get my phone?" He took the out of his pocket and gave them to me. When I got out some people bumped into me, I knew these people from school. "Jerks." I yelled when I I got through the crowed. "We love you too!" One of them said, I didn't know who. As I got to the car, I took my phone out, (Sidekick LX) and I shut the door. I saw the people from school, come over bye me. I was about to put more money in the thing where you put money in so you can park or whatever. The crowd cam over with a bat, and beat the $#!+ out of it! they go all the money. "what are you guys doing?" I ask Karina (name changed) "We need to get some money, so we beat the parking things until it breaks." "oh." Well, now what am I going to do?!" I yell at Lyssa ( name changed) "I dunno. Not pay?" "Yea, Yea." I'm going through the park, Bye!" I yelled as I crossed the street. "Bye! Happy birthday!" Katrina yelled back. As I went through the park, I saw Lyssa there with her sisters', mom, and dad. and for some reason, in my dream, they had a golden retriever with them... I looked at them. They looked so happy! Played together, laughing. I wanted to join the happiness, so maybe I could have some of it. As I walk towards the end of the park, I see my dad walking towards me. He smiles, but I don't. I stop as he walk towards me. I look at Lyssa and her family, and look at my dad. How would I choose? I just fell on my knees and cried. cried. And cried... I was on my knees, with my head between them and my arms covering my head, as the first tear fell off my face, and raindrop fell on my arm. As I watched myself from above, like in a movie, when the camera goes farther and higher from the person. and as I watched myself through my dream, as I watched my self get higher, like I was floating away from the crying me, I heard someone, a woman, singing, " Its All Become So Stupid, 'Cause Every things' So Stupid..." In a sweet, but fading voice...

Sad, huh? When I woke up, and 7.00 after this dream, I cried, I kept crying until my eyes where swollen and puffy, I guess, the dream meant, that...you have to choose in life. and weather its a choice that hurts another, or hurts yourself, you still have to choose. and during life...you wont always have a shoulder to cry on.